What was I thinking
Just after ending a long term relationship, I signed up for lavalife to remind myself that I was single. I waded through many men (including stumbling across my ex!), trying to figure out what I was looking for.
One day, while I was at home with a cold, I was checking my lavalife account. A guy named "Dr. Scientist" made a comment about the beatles reference in my profile. He's had my heart ever since.
We chatted that whole day and learned about each others families and all the other regular topics over the next week. One night, he asked if I was busy. I wasn't, and he promptly invited himself over. I said ok. As he was on his way over I kept saying to myself, "What was I thinking? Inviting someone I don't even know over to my home, where I live alone."
I decided to answer the door when he showed up. I saw a much shaggier-haired version of the picture he posted, and he later admitted that he saw a much shorter version of the girl he was expecting.
He was also much more shy than he made himself out to be, and since I carried the conversation that night I thought he wasn't interested at all and that I'd never hear from him again.
He texted me the next day and we had our first date that weekend. He slept over at my house a week after that and moved himself in officially about two weeks later. The whole time this was moving so fast, it was hard not to keep asking the same question.."what am I thinking?" But something made me keep going.
We got engaged a meer ten months into our relationship and married just two years later. Our wedding was beautiful, unique and at the site of our first date. He told me that day that while he was stricken by my height when I opened my apartment door (I'm only 5 feet - he's over 6 feet!), it was only a second before it was eclipsed by my smile, and that he's loved me since that moment.
It's been a fast love, one that many have questioned (and who could blame them - even we found it hard to believe that it was so right), but a much stronger love than I could've ever imagined.
